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what i've been doin' 2007-03-28 4 11:37 p.m. random notes of late, that i don't have the motivation to elaborate on: * i went to vegas, yes vegas baby! for 4 days of my spring break. it was such a spectacle but such fun. and cirque du soleil shows blow your mind - so go check them out if you haven't - in particular the beatles' one called love - awwwwesome - literally, it inspires awe. i wanted to watch it again about five minutes after it ended. and even more i wanted to be able to make my body fly through the air like the athletic women in the show - crazy amazing they are. *i very quickly realized upon returning home from beautiful vacation though, exactly why i don't take vacations. they're such wonderful escapes from it all, that the minute you're back in the real world, you want to be on vacation again. i very much don't want to be in real world time currently. i liked being able to forget it all for a while and pretend that i never knew what responsibilities were - and damn, i forgot that's what vacations could do for you. * i have two, yes count them two, internship interviews this week and hopefully another to be lined up for next week. this is more than i've had since i started looking in january. at this point, i feel like i've lost the anxiety of feeling way behind in getting this done - like "eh, it'll happen when it happens," but i think i've also lost a bit of my pickyness factor and i'll take anybody who'll have me. * i am in love with monday night television. prison break, followed by 24, and then the new show black donnellys. so many beautiful men and high paced action shows, so little time. so very sweet. * i'm nannying this new kiddo - an almost 4 year old demon seed. she's cute and adorable and polite when she's getting her way, the minute she doesn't though, watch out for her roundhouse kick and left hook. but i love her parents to death, so i think i'm sticking it out. but i had to babysit her the other night for the first evening stint, and she started to cry when she was in bed and wanted me to sit with her until she fell asleep, and then she actually said, 'my mom's never coming home' which crushed me. that base instinct, that gut deep fear of being left, of being alone - seeing it in a child just lays it all out so clear - we all feel it, even as adults, we just can't say it. doesn't make it any less sad that it's not articulated though. hear what i mean? * i'm liking the daylight saving switch and the return of evenings staying light later. i get to drive home from class around twilight which i love. and i think it might be about time to pick back up with my 8pm walks when i get home from school cause those i miss. previous - next