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prepping for the summer 2007-05-14 4 10:30 p.m. three papers, one group case study, and one project down. one mega final exam to go. woo...hoo... (and i'm spent... remember that inside joke?) anyhow i rocked out on my project i think. my montage to explain what i learned in multiculturalism class was a bunch of those picture illusions that you can see more than one thing in (like the old lady/young woman and the duck/rabbit), and my theme was that that's the core of counseling someone different from yourself - you have to learn to see the world from their eyes. you have to unstick your brain from your perspective and try to imagine the world in another way. the professor was ooh'ing and aw'ing all over it and wanted the whole class to look at my poster last because "it's such a core issue - if you can master that, you can counsel anyone." (and there are moments like that, which i've had before in other classes, where i know i'm gonna be alright in this profession, where i know i'm just clicking right into this, and i know that while i can doubt myself at times, i'm exactly where i should be, exactly where i need to be, and that is a powerful feeling.) so hopefully that fancy schmancy poster bounced up my grade from a B to an A. and now all i have to do is survive thursday and the class from hell's final from hell. i expressed my concern to my professor over my rather lacking midterm exam grade and how i have no idea how to study any better for the final (cause i thought i was quite prepared for the midterm), and her encouraging words were "you'll be pleasantly surprised for the final." this has the opposite effect of reassurance - this fills me with a huge sense of dread. if she's cut down the huge amount of multiple choice questions - say instead of the midterm's 74 questions, there's only 10 - i could be supremely screwed - less questions means you miss even one and you're down a whole letter grade. i have to ace this exam in order to not get a C in the course. i refuse to take this useless course again. it really has nothing to do with my area of counseling at all. and i am stupidly pissed it's gonna knock down my 4.0 gpa - every grad student should be able to boast that by the end of their degree. but at least come next week, i will have two huge less things to worry about. trying to focus on classwork has been supremely difficult with all the current family drama. i think my sister's coming home from cali for the summer to help out with my mom's chemotherapy. all i can say is if it's her shift, i'm totally outta here. vacation time here i come. it was supposed to be a summer of hardcore work - temping 8 to 8 if i could - trying desperately to accrue some savings to make it through the long year of interning for no pay which shall commence in september. now, screw it, i need some fun and if i have to go broke doing it, i'm not gonna stress over it. i plan on doing fun summer-y stuff: camping on lake george, going to 6 flags, hitting the new comedy club in the mall, tubing down the river, going to the spa, catching endless good flicks. and hopefully i'll have someone to do most of that with - if only he'll start obsessing about me 1/4 as much as i'm thinking about doing things with him. previous - next