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does it really not mean a thing if it ain't got that zing? 2007-07-26 4 1:38 a.m. the rare things in this world that really connect with you viscerally should really be treasured. for me, it's rare when i actually notice and retain their occurences, so i've been starting a list. music does it pretty easy for me - if a particular song hits me in a particular mood, there is an almost ecstatic release. i vividly recall a college dance, standing in a circle with my friends, rocking out to the dj, and 'groove is in the heart' came on. cheesy song, i know it, but i have never danced so hard, so freely, or so enthusiasticly in all my years since. movies - oh there are many a comedy that get my insides lighting up - clue, the money pit, and noises off spring to mind most immediately. watching tom hanks laughing hysterically after his bath tub falls through the floor -- priceless. i guess it's the physical slapstick that gets me going. when i laugh so hard i can't breathe, i'm in heaven, and it's not just from the lack of oxygen. i'm not sure if it's the timing of the experience or the actual thing itself, but when there's passion, why puzzle over the logistics i guess. i crave that passion, that spark and sizzle and zing of the moment when you're truly alive and almost overflowing from the inside. i miss those moments. i feel like i've just been faking them lately, hoping they'll come with more ease if i just pretend they never went away. the fear and the lack of hope have kind of driven those moments away i think. robbed me of them. but i want to stop pretending. previous - next