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i want to see how it feels
i feel like my life is changing. in preparation for this school year, this internship, this new life, i feel like i've made 180's in so many directions. my room is spotless - cleaner than it's been in decades - anyone who doesn't know me will not get the full depth of this miracle. i have organized closets and dusted shelves that have not had attention for their entire lives. i have no idea if i'm going to be able to keep it this way, but i am going to try like hell cause oddly i like the feeling of clean all of sudden. i've also washed my car for the third time this summer, mainly due to my bird friends mistaking my car for the bathroom, yet i'm starting to feel like an anal new car owner, perpetually washing and shining their prized possession. i have ironed, washed, pressed and sorted professional-looking outfits which are hanging in a special easily-accessible spot of my closet, like a kid ready for the first day of school, though i have yet to pick out that special first day outfit. i feel ready, and yet also some inklings that i am still missing something. |