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caring carefully 2007-11-11 4 5:11 p.m. i've been pondering something lately... do you end up caring for someone because of how they make you feel or who they intrinsicly are as a person? and which do you suppose creates the deeper longer lasting feeling? i don't want to say which way is the right way to love someone, but it kinda feels like one is lacking. so that's my philosophical notes of the evening... on the less deep side, i talked with my sister last night and she said she feels like she's taken over as my mother's counsel since i've been too busy for the job lately. i feel both bad and giddy about that. bad cause i'm pawning off such a huge burden, yet giddy because it's about goddamn time that i freed myself of that curse. i am no one's keeper except my own. i feel like ever since i started the school year, started my busy pseudo-life, it's been easier to draw the boundaries with my mother - if not merely due to the fact that i have no time for her and her drama by default. the holidays are speeding up upon us and january looms quickly after that, during which i hope to be moving out, fingers crossed, breath held, at least for the spring semester and then onward to whatever my life will hold after that. previous - next