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make up your mind 2008-04-05 4 11:31 p.m. there are times i really think my body has no clue how old it fucking is. the last few weeks, i felt like i was at death's door - i was like, 'dear god, i'm two weeks away from 30 and i feel like i'm falling apart at the seams.' i was getting a new infection every other day and feeling like depressed hell the days i wasn't contagious. then all of a sudden i have days like the last few where it's 10:30 or 11 at night and i'm raring to go. all my friends, many of them younger, are all ready for bedtime and i'm thinking 'where's a dance club when you need one?' i may be working on 30 in six days, but i still feel like i go out and work a dance floor to bits. my thesis capstone project is at least finally done. just gotta present it on monday night and then after a few more projects and papers due for the rest of the month left of the semester, i will hopefully be on my way to graduating with that pretty m.s. of course, i won't actually be going to the fancypants graduation ceremony due to the fact that lousy ccsu has now combined the grad commencement with the undergrads, which means unless i want to sit thru the five billion or so undergrad names to get to us measy 100 or so grads, i won't be getting a pretty pic of me in a cap and gown again. plus what the hell - since when did those ridiculous pieces of fabric cost 55 bloomin bucks? that's inanely lame. speaking of lame, i should have had all my job applications done last month. i really hope i haven't fucked myself for next year. it strikes me some nights that my life is somewhat disappointing to me. most moments i'm so obsessed with the current crises or dramas that i don't have time to see it, but from time to time i get a quiet chance to stand back and really see its lacking. previous - next