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i can see clearly even tho the clouds are here 2009-02-13 4 6:29 p.m. i am so fucking tired of having the rug yanked out from under me. these days it must take so much less than a feather to knock me on my ass - i don't see how the universe could be having that much fun anymore knocking me over so repeatedly. every time i think i have something stable to hang on to, something horrific happens to dispell such a crazy belief. people, jobs, places, family - there's no discrimination - if it's important to me, it will be destroyed. maybe it's me. i really can't take much more of this. it's no wonder i've sunk to such a pretty state of depression with so many shiny lights being snuffed out. how does a person keep going? my vain hopes that eventually things would turn around, that if i just kept persevering, kept treading the course, that something somehow someway would get better. but it's really not looking that way. previous - next