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here's my life, you can have it 2009-05-03 4 2:59 p.m. i am just a frikken mess again. i was doing better, or so i thought, now i slippy-slid right back down to the bottom. i wish... hell, i actually have no idea what i'm wishing for lately - i'm that confused. i guess i wish for some direction, some motivation, somebody to come along and tell me what to do - yea that'd be nice. like that crazy guy who basically sold his life on ebay - told people he was doing a horrible job at it, so he was giving it to them and people wrote in and told him what to try and he did it. so readers, any thoughts? cause i really don't know what to do with myself. i have no job ideas - haven't even applied to one since the tutor concept a month ago (which the richy elite have yet to return my phone call of a week ago). i have no ambition ideas - no notions of what to do with myself during these long empty days. i don't even get bored i'm so numb. life is just passing me by as i sit in my little cave-like lliving room, and i don't know what to do. my grief is not so overwhelming, but my moodiness is big. maybe it's just that time of the month hormones, maybe it's the rain, maybe it's having a list of phone calls to make to friends i haven't talked to in months that i just can't make cause they're gonna ask me how my life is and i'm too depressed to be honest about it. maybe i need to take a trip - get out of here for a while - clear my brain. i have no idea if that would help me figure shit out. i really don't know what would help me right now, except maybe a swift kick in the ass. "it's time to move on, it's time to get going, what lies ahead i have no way of knowing, but under my feet baby grass is growing, it's time to move on, it's time to get going... broken skyline, which way to loveland, which way to something better, which way to forgiveness, which way do i go?" i'd love to get tom petty's ideas on life. previous - next