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please let me up 2009-05-19 4 4:05 p.m. things do not just go wrong - they go ridiculously beyond wrong. my car's check engine light does not just go on - it goes on, i pay $400 for a tune-up. it goes on again - they think it's a valve adjustment. it goes on again - terrifyingly blinking this time, which we all know is worse than just on - and it turns out to be the head gasket. anyone who has had car troubles will know, that is the one piece of a car that you really really *really* don't want to crap out on you. yea, so of course that's what happens to me. it's undriveable. and i have to fix it because it's a practically goddamn new car - 2003 75,000 miles on it - it's newer than anything i've ever seen - and of course i've got no other alternatives. which, ha, is the theme for my life these days: no other options. all i can think is that i really pissed off the karma gods somewhere along the line, just really and truly offended their delicate sensitivities, and now they're just having their wicked way with me. oh yea, the pity train is here woowoo. i feel like here is the only place i can bitch and whine, cause otherwise it's just lame and temper tantrum sounding. but jesus fucking christ, can anything go right for me lately? anything? why is everything important just being plucked away from me one by one? *why*? family - check. job - check. money - check. friends - check. car - fucking eh check. my car is going to cost me $2400 i do not have. the rental car i have to drive for the next week and a half is costing me $300 i do not have. i have nothing left, man. not money, not hope, not pride, nothing. previous - next