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2009-11-21 - quiet today 2009-08-02 - still dealing 2009-07-18 - i need death to not be at the door 2009-07-05 - time to get going 2009-06-28 - you are not alone 2009-06-22 - setting a deadline and pondering love 2009-06-22 - i hate nights like this 2009-06-18 - this is not going well 2009-06-11 - still waiting for an identity 2009-06-03 - straight from therapy 2009-06-01 - giving up the dream 2009-05-31 - just waiting 2009-05-29 - i'm so done with this 2009-05-23 - is this the bottom of the barrel? again? 2009-05-21 - i am sucking up my life big time 2009-05-19 - please let me up 2009-05-14 - dealing with the nighttime 2009-05-14 - let me up, i've had enough part duh 2009-05-13 - stress ball 2009-05-10 - i fucking hate grieving 2009-05-03 - here's my life, you can have it 2009-04-28 - how do i let things go and get what i want? 2009-04-28 - close your eyes, clear your heart 2009-04-22 - my anger comes out as sadness 2009-04-16 - medicate myself 2009-04-13 - me negative one point ow 2009-04-11 - remember this for next year 2009-04-04 - yea i've been watching a lot of titus 2009-04-02 - what is wrong with me? 2009-04-01 - simplicity and family 2009-03-31 - uncertainly certain 2009-03-21 - comparatively speaking 2009-03-07 - broken all the way down 2009-02-13 - i can see clearly even tho the clouds are here 2009-01-15 - i fear i have nothing to give 2009-01-02 - this muck-filled path i'm trudging 2008-12-08 - he's gone 2008-11-10 - counting down to goodbye 2008-11-05 - plagued by nightmares 2008-09-29 - nothing, nothing, nothing 2008-08-22 - the state of things 2008-08-04 - empty and wanting to be filled 2008-07-10 - don't give a writer words 2008-06-18 - "i need rescue, i think i'm fading fast" 2008-06-08 - it is hard to believe a year has passed 2008-04-20 - "i want more than just okay." 2008-04-08 - temper tantrum time 2008-04-05 - make up your mind 2008-03-16 - grover-filled future 2008-01-18 - rediscovered old lifehouse 2007-12-23 - winds of smoky change 2007-12-08 - only linkin park at a time like this 2007-12-04 - old wounds being bumped 2007-12-01 - prep time 2007-11-21 - i'm starting to believe in a future 2007-11-15 - bulletproof weeks in your arms - it's just the song stuck in my head tonight - this could be the anger free night 2007-11-11 - caring carefully 2007-11-08 - please please bring peace 2007-10-28 - fucked philosophy 2007-10-25 - an autumn evening 2007-10-19 - gumming up the works 2007-10-07 - something's gone wrong 2007-09-30 - trying to learn 2007-09-16 - pathway to unhappy endings 2007-09-09 - you are everything 2007-09-01 - the end of august and beginning of life 2007-08-26 - i want to see how it feels 2007-08-16 - slip sliding away, into depression 2007-07-26 - does it really not mean a thing if it ain't got that zing? 2007-07-17 - how do you let go of the past, when it rears its ugly head around every important turn? 2007-07-12 - breathing 2007-07-07 - living the earth, the musical 2007-07-01 - not the night of my mind 2007-06-26 - i apologize for the cursing 2007-06-24 - hang up? oh no, hang on 2007-06-19 - there are many things i'd like to say to you, but i don't know how 2007-06-15 - it's better than 6 flags around here 2007-06-07 - why does different sound like difficult? 2007-06-01 - chemo day on the horizon 2007-05-29 - unfulfilled 2007-05-27 - how does this thing work? 2007-05-24 - gonna watch you shine, gonna watch you grow 2007-05-22 - feeling my way towards better 2007-05-20 - not the secret of my success 2007-05-14 - prepping for the summer 2007-05-10 - i am a rat not fleeing the sinking ship 2007-05-07 - never go down again dland 2007-04-25 - what i won't get 2007-04-24 - that virtue 2007-04-13 - think less 2007-04-13 - i don't want to be alone 2007-04-07 - identity and inferiority 2007-03-29 - selfish, at a time like this 2007-03-28 - what i've been doin' 2007-03-08 - there's something in here 2007-02-27 - my incompetence train, woo woo 2007-02-25 - today it's a, tomorrow it's b, c is the choice that's gotta be in there somewhere 2007-02-23 - uncertainty and decisions, my two favorite things 2007-02-20 - wriggling on a hook of my own making 2007-01-31 - for a girl so smart... 2007-01-24 - earth paging bush, come in, man! 2007-01-21 - i need something to do 2007-01-08 - i know i'm meant for more than this OR with every mistake we must surely be learning 2007-01-07 - with every mistake we must surely be learning 2006-12-28 - uncontrolable fucking family 2006-12-26 - i now officially hate christmas 2006-12-25 - christmas eve is never a good fucking day 2006-12-24 - aware of insight (or a day spent with my sister) 2006-12-15 - don't be afraid of your freedom 2006-12-10 - having it shortly, not missing it now - really 2006-12-05 - even my sense of humor has returned 2006-11-22 - revoltingly bad 2006-11-11 - attachment theory not at work 2006-11-09 - what i'm dealing with 2006-11-05 - can't it just be january? 2006-10-25 - could money solve all this? 2006-10-19 - singing myself 2006-10-11 - falling in love with me 2006-09-27 - random note 2006-09-21 - effort and faith 2006-09-15 - i wish it were christmas already 2006-09-08 - rambly empty lonely night 2006-09-04 - i'm not ready? 2006-08-29 - another adventure begins 2006-08-27 - what the hell does falling out mean? 2006-08-25 - hope not failure 2006-08-14 - how do you jump over a wall? 2006-08-13 - slightly altered 2006-08-11 - the stars are wicked smart 2006-08-10 - bush needs a strong talking to 2006-08-07 - foggy fugue 2006-08-02 - i'm no magician 2006-07-31 - we all drive on 2006-07-28 - i need a break 2006-07-21 - chaos aka crazy just like me 2006-07-15 - a dream is a wish your heart screams 2006-07-11 - paul and a car, entirely unrelated 2006-07-01 - relating world 2006-06-30 - remember to breathe 2006-06-27 - reflecting on his reflection 2006-06-21 - answering the questions i'm asking myself 2006-06-04 - this is hard 2006-05-28 - ironic paradox 2006-05-24 - this is why i haven't had a relationship? 2006-05-16 - certainly, but perhaps not so certain 2006-05-07 - don't yuk my yum 2006-04-23 - titus, hug me? 2006-04-17 - commit 2006-04-12 - train. wreck. 2006-04-04 - that grim reaper's busy, eh? 2006-03-22 - no more feelings 2006-03-06 - compos mentis 2006-03-01 - tiptoeing around shit 2006-02-27 - the tale of heidi the hound dog, and my mother 2006-02-21 - simple... 2006-02-19 - enjoying the contact 2006-02-17 - never underestimate the power of denial 2006-02-14 - i bet mr. valentine didn't like chocolate 2006-02-13 - the function of a dysfunctional family 2006-02-10 - yea, i watch a lot of tv, sometimes it makes me happy 2006-02-05 - will i always be like this? 2006-02-03 - happening 2006-02-01 - a stripper angel said it but it's true 2006-01-27 - yah that's about all 2006-01-25 - crazy little thing called family 2006-01-21 - i can't even save myself 2006-01-16 - "things get damaged, things get broken..." 2006-01-11 - disorderly knowledge 2006-01-08 - progress, not perfection 2006-01-07 - this is no good 2006-01-05 - not resolutions, more like solutions 2006-01-02 - boy do i love cram sessions 2006-01-01 - oh you are such a winner 2005-12-31 - snowing new years eve-day 2005-12-19 - it's lonely in la-la land 2005-12-17 - moving day again, not for me of course, not yet 2005-12-14 - like melissa said, i wanna be in love 2005-12-11 - like he said, those ovaries are sweating 2005-12-09 - where are my friends? 2005-12-01 - i'm not pushing elephants up the stairs anymore 2005-11-21 - and he was doing so well... 2005-11-17 - how come we always wanna impress our family more than joe schmo on the street? 2005-11-10 - "becoming who we are" 2005-11-07 - dilemmas 2005-11-01 - frigidly rigid 2005-10-26 - school miniature business 2005-10-22 - not feeling this 2005-10-18 - the bed bugs do, in fact, bite 2005-10-15 - yeh, blame it on the rain, why doncha ya? slacker. 2005-10-13 - so who am i? 2005-10-12 - all because of halloween 2005-10-10 - hm, do i sound like a teenager? good, cause i'm that excited! 2005-10-09 - identity crisis anyone? 2005-10-02 - flawed but i am cleaning up so well - that line always applies 2005-09-30 - the onset of autumn wacks out my head 2005-09-26 - oh, time for a political rant 2005-09-25 - identity crisis 2005-09-23 - wishing the condolences were over before they've begun 2005-09-16 - the dawn of a new era 2005-09-12 - i need to plan my vacation now 2005-09-11 - what am i without that place? 2005-09-06 - i wonder at my spine 2005-09-03 - the call of unemployment 2005-08-29 - do jobs ever run smoothly? 2005-08-28 - a job is just a job 2005-08-22 - don't mix motion sickness meds with vodka kids 2005-08-21 - i can think of better ways to spend a sunday - a root canal might've been nice 2005-08-18 - what is gray? 2005-08-14 - nice weekend, eh? 2005-08-08 - i hope like hell it's just the bitchy season 2005-08-03 - did we have a summer? 2005-07-30 - 'the gift of trust' 2005-07-28 - blaring signs for the hearing impaired 2005-07-26 - i don't wanna do this again 2005-07-23 - batman has no fear, so why should i? 2005-07-19 - life is just rolling down the river 2005-07-17 - the world's not meant for this 2005-07-15 - sitting waiting thinking 2005-07-11 - not my words 2005-07-06 - post #2 in 2 minutes - the wedding remix 2005-07-06 - my confused thoughts? i write them all out when i should be paying attention in class... 2005-07-03 - smile like you mean it bitches 2005-06-30 - pure poetry bliss 2005-06-29 - judging today 2005-06-27 - see this frame of mind? study it 2005-06-23 - who needs to see a professional? 2005-06-21 - i don't deal well after this long of a day's work 2005-06-20 - ah feel the love of a big state school 2005-06-17 - "that's something i need to deal with at some point somehow..." 2005-06-16 - what is stress? it's thinking about it 2005-06-09 - how did that happen? 2005-06-06 - movie and tv picks, amid the chaos 2005-06-05 - bitching then preaching 2005-06-02 - compare yourself to more people, whydoncha? 2005-05-26 - rollercoaster rainy days 2005-05-22 - sweaty palms don't make for a good interview 2005-05-20 - note to self 2005-05-15 - mopey rambling 2005-05-08 - this isn't how i feel 2005-05-05 - stuck in a town and stuck on this song 2005-04-28 - muses on cardio, zen, spring, self-esteem, stupid boy talk, and kindred souls 2005-04-25 - a little daydream is good for ya 2005-04-22 - backlog 4 - cd times 2005-04-22 - backlog 3 - a true experience 2005-04-22 - backlog 2 - a bday suu-u-prise 2005-04-22 - backlog 1 - changes of the day 2005-04-14 - wait for the weekend update 2005-03-31 - trying to think my way free 2005-03-27 - better butter 2005-03-25 - man i can blabber - the ca trip 2005-03-24 - don't talk to me, don't even look at me or i'll rip your eyes out of your fucking head, 'kay? 2005-03-17 - long days journey into vacation 2005-03-16 - an environmentalist rage 2005-03-05 - i'm never going to the dentist again 2005-03-03 - it was just a breakdown sort of day 2005-02-23 - overall a good day of learning 2005-02-20 - git 'er done 2005-02-20 - downswing 2005-02-18 - weird day for dentists and getting out early 2005-02-16 - a jetson future 2005-02-10 - weathermen are teasing sluts 2005-02-04 - stitched together wedding woes 2005-01-30 - a weekend 2005-01-28 - let's kill 'em all so we don't have to foot the bill for their prison time! 2005-01-27 - wanting for a weekend 2005-01-26 - howling at the moon 2005-01-19 - cold number 8,224,861 2005-01-16 - i had a week, did you? 2005-01-06 - whatta snow day 2005-01-03 - do it up baby 2005-01-02 - it's only after she quits that the suckage truly begins 2004-12-29 - an empty stomach of change 2004-12-28 - mother's not happy 2004-12-23 - the only time i've ever wanted to haul off and smack a kid 2004-12-19 - karma just smacked my ass 2004-12-14 - looking for my own cheshire cat guide 2004-12-12 - new new magoo 2004-11-27 - don't wanna, don't care 2004-11-18 - trying to re-find my way 2004-11-11 - i guess it was to be expected 2004-11-09 - i'm not special 2004-11-08 - perhaps perhaps per-haps (great song) 2004-11-03 - 'it's only four more years' is no fucking consolation 2004-11-02 - animal politics 2004-10-31 - as trick or treaters ring the bell 2004-10-25 - musical woes 2004-10-24 - "i am flawed, but i am cleaning up so well"... just not today 2004-10-20 - bunny hop thoughts 2004-10-16 - 80 bucks for a pain-in-the-ass afternoon 2004-10-15 - damn it 2004-10-13 - time to grow a germ-free pair 2004-10-11 - ah so much to say 2004-09-26 - i wanna hear 2004-09-23 - sometimes i wish for more than faith in myself 2004-09-17 - sluggish and detached 2004-09-16 - sense the irony 2004-09-13 - my day, how was yours dear? 2004-09-10 - onward for him, and me 2004-09-08 - let the government track me down 2004-09-06 - today's things 2004-09-02 - when i'm this tired, nothing seems worth the effort 2004-08-28 - oh my god i'm so whiny 2004-08-25 - kerry klimbing 2004-08-23 - how to make me swoon 2004-08-21 - a comedy club outing 2004-08-18 - go digital and you won't look back 2004-08-15 - a long drive to learn about being different 2004-08-11 - ducks in a row - quack quack 2004-08-09 - man i want me about five days of sleep 2004-08-06 - needing you 2004-08-03 - good men 2004-08-02 - i have no plan and that needs to change 2004-07-30 - purging 2004-07-24 - welcome to the surreal life 2004-07-16 - the female version of wile e. coyote 2004-07-14 - all over the board 2004-07-10 - just one more on fahrenheit 9/11 2004-07-09 - we *were* duped 2004-07-08 - does anybody else hate the new car smell? 2004-07-04 - an (un)planned out fourth 2004-07-01 - the boston trip 2004-06-29 - other than that, i got nothing 2004-06-23 - finally getting stuff done 2004-06-21 - no plan but sweet hellos 2004-06-19 - tired disjointed ponderings 2004-06-17 - i love to laugh, loud and long and clear 2004-06-16 - hot time, summer on the tv 2004-06-14 - i'm so over that 2004-06-13 - today, tomorrow 2004-06-07 - wookin pa nub in all the wrong places 2004-06-03 - interview for life 2004-06-01 - fragmented sentences 2004-05-25 - tell me a little story called your life 2004-05-22 - she's my dumb friend 2004-05-17 - feeling happy for all the small reasons 2004-05-16 - a patio cafe full of fretting 2004-05-12 - didn't you get the memo? depression is so five minutes ago 2004-05-07 - fight all the way to my bed 2004-05-02 - fear of life and love 2004-04-30 - juggling smoke 2004-04-27 - ponder - full 2004-04-20 - there is a big picture among all the grainy details 2004-04-17 - b- b- b- b- 2004-04-12 - "owie..." name that movie 2004-04-10 - you smell like a monkey and you look like one too... 2004-04-07 - i got two two projects and a microphone 2004-04-03 - the time's a-not-a-changin' 2004-03-31 - mistakenly mistakeable 2004-03-31 - why do we place such damn value on those little green pieces of paper? 2004-03-29 - that's all i got to say about that 2004-03-21 - scary's not so bad 2004-03-21 - back to my party roots, if i ever had any 2004-03-15 - if it be my will 2004-03-13 - i don't fear being alone, so why am i so scared? 2004-03-09 - what's going on in my life 2004-03-06 - somebody order that white room, would ya? 2004-03-01 - goodbye oscars 2004-02-28 - a reply - to myself 2004-02-28 - pre-mature spring 2004-02-27 - i could use a little enthusiasm 2004-02-25 - cooking lines this evening 2004-02-24 - tempting or not 2004-02-21 - map of this life 2004-02-19 - not those damn wedding bells again, jesus christ 2004-02-16 - feeling blissfully new 2004-02-13 - haha this is not the end 2004-02-09 - swan song 2004-02-08 - a better question could be, what *isn't* missing? 2004-02-03 - she-ra i'm not 2004-02-02 - who wants to hear a venting? 2004-01-29 - the brownies aren't the only thing that's baking 2004-01-27 - can you smell then fresh notebooks and number 2 pencils? 2004-01-25 - aprilly museum; admission: 23 cents 2004-01-25 - ripping this bandaid off - quick and painful 2004-01-24 - did temper tantrums ever actually end up working out for you? 2004-01-20 - race *from* the white house is right 2004-01-16 - aprilly trying to avoid exerting effort again 2004-01-13 - patience is a virtu...al impossibility 2004-01-11 - i'll never look at a crane game in the same way again 2004-01-10 - how can it be so cold with no snow? inconceivable. 2004-01-09 - so where's my leather outfit? 2004-01-08 - half flings for tonight 2004-01-02 - tradition-wise 2003-12-29 - i thought this was supposed to hit before the holidays 2003-12-28 - getting it done 2003-12-26 - bollidays 2003-12-23 - you're so vain 2003-12-22 - friendly niceties 2003-12-19 - write me a holiday poem at least 2003-12-16 - entertainment tonight, not the show, my show rather 2003-12-13 - smiling ebay-er 2003-12-09 - we put the 'func' in dysfunctional 2003-12-04 - winter's coming - i wish just not right now 2003-12-03 - today and yesterday 2003-11-30 - things tonight... 2003-11-27 - i'd rather have been a turkey today 2003-11-21 - the good, the bad, and the 'i'm so hot, i'm smokin' 2003-11-20 - flit flit flit 2003-11-18 - all that i'm feeling 2003-11-18 - 'bout what i expected 2003-11-17 - the sorts are out, very out, way out 2003-11-15 - nickelback's good 2003-11-13 - my shallow bouncy night 2003-11-11 - bitter taste in my mouth 2003-11-10 - is there anybody listening? 2003-11-07 - everything in list form 2003-11-04 - you're a metaphor 2003-11-03 - welcome to this life 2003-10-30 - wreckage 2003-10-30 - goodbye stephanie 2003-10-29 - today, i'm blogg-y 2003-10-24 - bless the little children 2003-10-22 - oh my head sounds like that 2003-10-19 - i can't save you 2003-10-16 - i love you mom but dammit... 2003-10-12 - is there cheese in this here maze? 2003-10-11 - ridiculous 2003-10-09 - here's what i'm thinking 2003-10-07 - i am haunted by waters... 2003-10-02 - tod is god, just spelled differently 2003-10-01 - oh the new men around me 2003-09-29 - what's next? 2003-09-26 - helluva lot of horoscope 2003-09-25 - woman for white house 2003-09-22 - somebody turn on a light - it's dark in my head 2003-09-15 - just about ready 2003-09-15 - hahaha here's my wedding 2003-09-09 - i don't need the stars to tell me that 2003-09-04 - done and ready for the ringing 2003-09-02 - i am a chicken with its head cut off 2003-08-30 - i'm a little muddled 2003-08-29 - oh so complete chaos 2003-08-27 - expired at one job, brand new at another 2003-08-24 - getting ready 2003-08-20 - not quite lucid, whining as per usual 2003-08-19 - distanced from it all 2003-08-16 - oh poor me 2003-08-08 - let's not be unrealistic 2003-08-04 - yay ... links 2003-07-29 - hahahahaha 2003-07-26 - father knows best 2003-07-23 - walk a day in someone else's shoes, if you can fathom it 2003-07-16 - do you hear us? 2003-07-15 - name that tune 2003-07-11 - kaboom... and not in a good way 2003-07-10 - i don't know how to put this all together 2003-07-08 - i don't think i want to meet mr. 567 2003-07-07 - disjoint, that joint, outta joint 2003-07-05 - rejuvenated from a swim 2003-07-04 - i'd like to talk 2003-07-03 - if you could switch your gender, would you? 2003-06-30 - bleepity bleep bleep 2003-06-29 - celebs only i would like - who's yours? 2003-06-26 - bring on the pink fluffiness 2003-06-25 - ah feel the power of paper 2003-06-23 - is that whole mars and venus thing really bunk? 2003-06-21 - you're in charge of you 2003-06-20 - biting 2003-06-19 - last day, can i get a wa-wa? 2003-06-16 - stress-squirrel-test, huh? 2003-06-15 - why i am like i am 2003-06-14 - charlie kaufman is you, and me, and that guy over there 2003-06-13 - playing with kids the rest of my life 2003-06-12 - beck-alicious day 2003-06-11 - yup the stars got it 2003-06-08 - mother may i - ah, no 2003-06-07 - what i see in marriage 2003-06-06 - a huge-ass long recap of these days 2003-05-29 - old time junior high, new time wedding 2003-05-26 - where's another table? 2003-05-24 - stuck stuck shit 2003-05-22 - our silly little selves 2003-05-21 - my pants are on fire 2003-05-20 - quoting past 2003-05-18 - what's another word for tan? 2003-05-16 - emote this 2003-05-14 - the cold that lasted all year 2003-05-09 - body revolts 2003-05-04 - bitch bitch bitchy 2003-05-03 - may may go away, come again another da 2003-04-29 - downright scary 2003-04-26 - listen to me? 2003-04-24 - a memo to those who bitch 2003-04-22 - there goes the weekend 2003-04-19 - cold, 24, quiet time 2003-04-16 - highs and lows 2003-04-13 - cyndi's fearless 2003-04-11 - birthday day 2003-04-09 - a very un-merry birthday to me 2003-04-08 - no responsibility fo me - or my back 2003-04-07 - very very tired 2003-04-06 - tax man and sleepy pie (strike that, reverse it) 2003-04-03 - cra-zy 2003-04-01 - "this lonely spiral i've been in" 2003-04-01 - oh the joy 2003-03-29 - free relaxation time leads to thinking 2003-03-29 - yup it definitely is 2003-03-27 - superb day - su-perb (say it again lucas) 2003-03-26 - enthused yet? 2003-03-25 - audit defined 2003-03-22 - a lecture from that voice in my head 2003-03-21 - not today 2003-03-20 - we can never all just get along 2003-03-18 - raving day 2003-03-15 - relationship world 2003-03-14 - hm, come up with your own title people 2003-03-13 - yea 2003-03-12 - this is what happens when dland won't let me add entries every time i actually want to 2003-03-08 - jonnying it up - aprilly style 2003-03-08 - deb and hannah's example 2003-03-08 - once in a lifetime? 2003-03-07 - thus far 2003-03-04 - wedding issues again? 2003-03-03 - per-hic-sist-hic-tent hic-hic-cups...hic... 2003-03-02 - the idea 2003-03-01 - social night? 2003-02-28 - no purpose future 2003-02-27 - the neighborhood's gonna be so empty 2003-02-26 - where'd that bad mood come from? 2003-02-26 - a trip down memory lane - the first boy i asked out 2003-02-24 - green and growing 2003-02-22 - a hell of a night 2003-02-21 - two dark dramas for a dark day 2003-02-18 - the perfect ending song 2003-02-18 - a job? oh probably not 2003-02-17 - jaded and hungry 2003-02-16 - anybody else in a valley? 2003-02-12 - i'd love to leave 2003-02-07 - end of story 2003-02-07 - a haircut above and beyond the call 2003-02-06 - los angeles and old yeller 2003-02-04 - i'm not the leader type 2003-02-02 - several notes on things 2003-02-01 - 10, no 9, 9 thoughts for today 2003-01-30 - kids are the best 2003-01-26 - sunday sunday sunday 2003-01-23 - oh crap 2003-01-22 - being at peace with death 2003-01-20 - phil 2003-01-18 - moody blues 2003-01-16 - waiting for the news and talking bout love 2003-01-15 - jobs? careers? can i possibly give up on them all? 2003-01-14 - damn, that's bad karma 2003-01-12 - quoted time 2003-01-12 - that one thing2 and pet peeves 2003-01-09 - trees of life 2003-01-06 - bits and spits 2003-01-04 - you don't know me 2003-01-02 - which step is this? 2003-01-01 - no no it wouldn't 2002-12-31 - happy new year? 2002-12-29 - sunday eve, everyday woes 2002-12-29 - oh christmas joy of sickness 2002-12-26 - nope 2002-12-23 - letting myself feel good 2002-12-19 - zach almighty 2002-12-18 - build me a new one sammy 2002-12-16 - green day of joy 2002-12-15 - oddly enough, i wonder 2002-12-14 - feeling better for the holidays 2002-12-11 - what have we learned today? 2002-12-10 - you can't have it both ways 2002-12-10 - amoxicillin for everyone 2002-12-09 - people with no ears 2002-12-08 - music heals the soul, if not the body 2002-12-07 - travel time 2002-12-06 - what comes naturally 2002-12-05 - oh hateful me 2002-12-01 - u2 soothes 2002-11-30 - a wish, a wash, a wishy-wash 2002-11-29 - wasting my time, or yours, or both 2002-11-27 - the first snow 2002-11-25 - freedom 2002-11-24 - have i mentioned how much i hate this job? 2002-11-20 - power outage, song lyric and college - but not in that order 2002-11-12 - to friend of 'friend' 2002-11-07 - shit. 2002-10-23 - the bottom 2002-10-18 - learning what you're really good at 2002-10-11 - my version of new years... looking back on the year 2002-09-24 - rolling on over, move it on over 2002-09-22 - damn those kids and their germs 2002-09-17 - depressed sunny morning 2002-09-15 - lock it all up 2002-09-15 - don't ask me - no seriously don't 2002-09-13 - well that blew up in my face 2002-09-10 - new musings for today 2002-09-10 - pre-work musings 2002-09-08 - hart crane 2002-09-06 - figure it out yourself 2002-09-04 - bitch day 2002-09-01 - oh i can't even begin to sum this up 2002-08-30 - an ego stroking 2002-08-30 - one two three things, unrelated 2002-08-27 - that one line 2002-08-25 - donnie darkness 2002-08-22 - oh man this is a long entry of my nothing day 2002-08-21 - it'll do - and a note to dland 2002-08-18 - ah let's see... fate, negativity and poor pedro, all rather unrelated 2002-08-15 - if i were a cat, i'd be dead now 2002-08-15 - night time walking 2002-08-13 - read my mind 2002-08-10 - the light changes everything, dammit 2002-08-08 - not feeling that love connection 2002-08-07 - leonard cohen mellows me 2002-08-06 - just talking out loud, working through my love issues 2002-08-05 - miss america pageant random 2002-07-30 - opposite of opposite 2002-07-29 - a tisket a tasket a basket of nonsense 2002-07-27 - a·poc·a·lyp·tic: of a revelatory or prophetic nature. 2002-07-23 - ack! not doing good 2002-07-21 - spazzy with no sleep 2002-07-19 - nothing 2002-07-17 - musically obsessed 2002-07-15 - damn cloudy these days 2002-07-13 - social escapades 2002-07-11 - really taking stock of things 2002-07-08 - grinding to a halt, nothing feeling real 2002-07-04 - getting better but preparing for the circus 2002-07-01 - saying goodbye to grammy 2002-06-29 - dreamy daze 2002-06-26 - shit shit shit shit freaking shit 2002-06-24 - the vicious cycle 2002-06-23 - saying goodbye to a futile wish 2002-06-19 - box car racer 2002-06-16 - just say/do it 2002-06-14 - i'll skip the next massage i guess 2002-06-12 - rain, motivation and empty emails 2002-06-11 - it's so damn hot my ovaries are sweating 2002-06-10 - goodbye kraven, goodbye to you 2002-06-10 - i could do something crazy 2002-06-09 - i'm tired of the marriage talks 2002-06-08 - simple rolling stones 2002-06-04 - the wedding in excessive detail 2002-06-03 - home again home again jiggety jig 2002-05-29 - thanks for the recap of my crap 2002-05-28 - say what you mean wouldya? 2002-05-27 - do you hear wedding bells? 2002-05-26 - goddamn this wedding 2002-05-26 - holy hell random crap 2002-05-23 - profiled? me? 2002-05-21 - my week off looms 2002-05-19 - i can't deal with my futures 2002-05-13 - list this buster 2002-05-12 - nothing to fear 2002-05-09 - some days good, some days... eh... 2002-05-05 - ya know what happens when you tell yourself not to think about something...? 2002-05-02 - way too random to list 2002-04-30 - just to that one person who knows what i'm writing about 2002-04-28 - whiny, not strong, not at all 2002-04-22 - which quotes do the job better? 2002-04-21 - oh i wish i had the balls to bash this station publicly 2002-04-21 - let me up, i've had enough 2002-04-16 - dreams and hunger 2002-04-20 - kick in the ass 2002-04-08 - unrelated, my horoscope and the odd pain in me 2002-04-01 - i'm a bug in a cup and it's a long way out 2002-03-30 - i'm in little pieces 2002-03-18 - bouncing back 2002-03-14 - sadness of me 2002-03-10 - stop me before i hurt again 2002-03-10 - mail -- and the light returning 2002-03-08 - weird searches and warm weather 2002-03-05 - wave-y day and a bearly one too 2002-03-06 - how do you get from here to there? 2002-03-03 - growing up married? 2002-03-03 - up early/at work mumbles 2002-03-02 - horoscope days 2002-03-02 - random mush 2002-02-27 - imperfect 2002-02-26 - argh 2002-02-24 - damn emotions 2002-02-20 - dealing with it and longing for spring 2002-02-17 - am i done? where's the zing? 2002-02-17 - signs you're (not) a grown-up 2002-02-15 - temping in the real world 2002-02-13 - lack of interaction 2002-02-13 - soul-deep 2002-02-12 - temp jobs? no! 2002-02-21 - anticipation 2002-02-10 - people are mad 2002-02-10 - okay 2002-02-10 - whistle while you work 2002-02-07 - get in line dammit 2002-02-07 - mayer's wonderland 2002-02-06 - discussions 2002-03-17 - hey feelings - i'd like to talk 2002-02-06 - getting too much information 2002-02-05 - the anti-girl 2002-02-04 - i'm bad at this 2002-02-03 - tease? 2002-02-02 - being there too much for her? 2002-01-30 - crazy wants 2002-01-30 - do something 2002-01-28 - watching the world whizz me by 2002-01-28 - lame and pointless entry 2002-01-27 - aw man, come on! 2002-01-23 - no idea 2002-01-22 - music and dating shows 2002-01-20 - a sunny winter day 2002-01-20 - don't want to be inside... 2002-01-20 - politics schmolitics 2002-01-19 - sailing on the stars with starsailor 2002-01-19 - the crazy 20s email 2002-01-18 - how come i can't get what i want? 2002-01-15 - insanity defined 2002-01-14 - slideshow 2002-01-13 - thank you my ex-the-therapist 2002-01-11 - work it this way 2002-01-22 - i'm sorry that you turned to driftwood 2002-01-10 - fuck it! so be it... 2002-01-10 - waiting for a bed to arrive 2002-01-10 - how friends can hurt 2002-01-09 - murphys law on a cold day 2002-01-08 - turn it up 2002-01-12 - that one thing 2002-01-03 - i'm gloating cause damn it, i'm the bomb 2002-01-02 - need this, need that, it never ends 2002-01-01 - new year's - bah 2001-12-30 - relating 2001-12-28 - dammit steph 2001-12-27 - being a kid and learning from someone 2001-12-26 - exhausted christmas half-thoughts 2002-01-25 - a long january 2002-04-05 - dammit this sucks 2001-12-22 - what one can learn from the girls 2001-12-20 - run aprilly run 2001-12-19 - green-eyed and a mascot? 2001-12-19 - great day of mail....um no... not usually 2001-12-17 - titanic ponderings 2001-12-17 - better days and shopping craze 2001-12-16 - wow what a beautifully shitty day 2001-12-15 - sun and running 2001-12-16 - a bit more wine, and song to go with my cheese 2001-12-14 - going back to coldplay 2001-12-14 - rain on me 2001-12-13 - family times 2001-12-18 - there goes.... me.... 2001-12-11 - a little encouragement here... 2001-12-06 - back in the real world 2001-12-05 - winter winter come home 2001-12-04 - bird by bird, my friends 2001-12-03 - mentally working out the sickness 2001-11-29 - i wish i could hug dave matthews 2001-11-27 - being sick-like 2001-11-21 - it is a choice 2001-11-21 - just about winter 2001-11-20 - dreaming away 2001-11-19 - the hurt and off-topic, a new group 2001-11-19 - crazy rope dreams 2001-11-18 - reunion days 2001-11-17 - therapy time? 2001-11-16 - bless me? 2001-11-15 - radio days, stupid in love, and organizer queen 2001-11-14 - hazyness 2001-11-12 - cyndi cyndi 2001-11-09 - anger overwhelm - CSB is the devil 2001-11-06 - shout 2001-11-05 - detached, numb, and not really feeling 2001-11-02 - angry with me 2001-10-31 - halloween me 2001-10-30 - how to smile 2001-10-29 - i am an adult 2001-10-28 - autumn days 2001-11-24 - man oh man 2001-10-27 - painting, time, and work 2001-10-26 - halloween-less 2001-10-23 - travis? 2001-10-23 - stimulation 2001-10-22 - bouncing back from no sleep 2001-10-19 - how to love yourself 2001-10-18 - waxing philosophic 2001-10-16 - i don't care 2001-10-16 - sexist pigs 2001-10-16 - fear and longing 2001-10-13 - the next time 2001-10-12 - radio star 2002-04-14 - i wish they'd just act normal 2001-10-10 - lotta stuff, angry emails and a gig 2001-10-09 - crazy government 2001-10-08 - you said goodbye 2001-10-25 - tom tom tom 2001-10-07 - a book of mindly topics 2001-10-05 - moms shouldn't ask about your sex life 2001-10-01 - back again 2001-12-09 - mind churning 2002-01-24 - quoting night 2001-09-27 - weird weird logic 2001-09-26 - horoscope this 2001-09-26 - writing it out 2001-09-24 - mourning 2001-09-22 - refocusing after bad days 2001-09-20 - unraveling 2001-09-19 - tired 2001-09-14 - don't watch the car wreck and jumping for it 2001-09-12 - mother musings and head games 2001-09-11 - september 11, 2001 2001-09-09 - surprising 2001-09-05 - best friends, school and boy crazies 2001-08-31 - craziness 2001-08-29 - not rare, well-done 2001-08-24 - compete this 2001-08-22 - things just can't go right 2001-08-20 - slowing down time 2001-08-17 - crushing 2001-08-16 - jumble o' thoughts 2001-08-14 - swinging 2001-08-13 - rainy days 2001-08-09 - on and off 2001-08-07 - the future looming 2001-08-06 - rolling your eyes 2001-08-03 - that's all 2001-08-02 - enjoyment 2001-07-30 - looking for a someone 2001-07-29 - dad and tears 2001-07-26 - needing fresh air 2001-07-25 - being social 2001-07-21 - life progressing 2001-07-16 - the hard path 2001-07-16 - damn country 2001-07-15 - quitting time 2001-07-14 - monotony 2001-07-13 - fading 2001-07-09 - career enlightenment 2001-07-08 - death is coming? 2001-07-08 - that crazy thing called chemistry 2001-07-05 - fourth of july goings on 2001-07-03 - hair derail 2001-07-02 - good weather for the heart 2001-07-01 - muddled thoughts 2001-06-28 - validate me 2001-06-27 - the next path 2001-06-26 - no sleep cause and effect 2001-06-26 - becoming an aunt 2001-06-25 - they say it so well 2001-06-24 - my body 2001-06-22 - the marathon 2001-06-18 - poor excuse for friends 2001-06-14 - a summer trip of planning 2001-06-10 - it's national depression week 2001-06-09 - smelling sweet 2001-06-08 - dark 2001-06-13 - argh 2001-06-07 - laundry 2001-06-07 - labels 2001-06-05 - damn mind 2001-07-23 - power 2001-06-20 - message 2001-06-04 - the compassion trait 2001-06-03 - father's day 2001-08-15 - touch me 2001-05-31 - dammit, freaking out 2001-05-29 - a horrid shade of jealousy 2001-05-29 - words, just words 2001-08-10 - x, y and z 2001-07-10 - this guy 2001-05-26 - winning is good 2001-05-24 - the last week 2001-05-21 - what have i gotten myself into? 2001-05-19 - that one friend 2001-05-18 - don't read if you offend easily 2002-01-21 - working double and seeing it too 2001-05-12 - mooshy 2001-05-06 - the music of my life 2001-05-03 - a day is never off 2001-04-29 - the nyquil talking 2001-04-27 - you liar 2001-04-20 - um bad day 2001-04-08 - hobby vs. career 2001-04-07 - a webcam, a webcam 2001-04-07 - crazy baby 2001-04-06 - bad usage 2001-04-02 - hugs to you 2001-03-29 - an adult? no, no, no 2001-03-29 - tension and love 2001-04-06 - something better 2001-03-26 - mindless jobs 2001-03-21 - overwhelmed and numb 2001-03-17 - happiness and taking a break 2001-03-10 - love whining 2001-03-04 - strange comfort 2001-02-12 - i knew it 2001-04-05 - a new thingey 2001-02-08 - my life is not my own 2001-02-04 - ah! a "real" job! 2001-02-01 - bad dates suck 2001-01-30 - interviews and dating (not that they're related or anything) 2001-01-27 - cowardice 2001-01-22 - a friend indeed 2001-04-05 - scenes of life 2001-04-05 - damn job 2001-01-19 - what's the point? 2001-01-13 - darkness: the bliss factor 2001-01-11 - no I'm not jealous 2001-01-10 - don't tread so heavy on me 2001-01-06 - marriage? um, no 2001-01-02 - a mother's approval 2001-01-01 - living with your mother 2000-12-31 - wrong wrong wrong 2000-12-27 - new year's eve drama 2000-12-27 - the cynic finally approves 2000-12-24 - ah to be young again... 2000-12-24 - it's a lonely planet 2000-12-24 - money and family don't go together 2000-12-23 - matchmakers 2000-12-23 - why? 2000-12-22 - party party party! 2000-12-22 - don't worry? yah right... 2000-12-29 - impatience 2001-01-04 - goddammit it's all my fault 2001-03-30 - an instant of longing 2001-06-07 - productiveness on the site 2001-01-04 - a horrible no good very bad day 2001-10-05 - coward coward 2001-02-24 - finding the words